Just Stop It
Assalamualaikum wbt
I can’t sleep. Looking at the time now (5.50 am) makes me feel I don’t want to sleep at all. Otherwise I might wake up late. And need to leave the house in rush. And will be late to reach the hospital.
I wonder why. Whenever I’ve made up my mind, there is still a little something that comes and knocks my heart. Is this a repentance that I have to pay to make me feel ‘Yes, I deserve it’? So that they (whoever they are) will feel equal and so, we are no longer rivals?
If that what they want, they have got it since long ago. I am broke with nothing left with me. So, please. Just go. And let me carry on with my life. And don’t compare life of yours with mine. And the memories of yours with mine. I may have a little of them but to me, they worth trillion times better than yours.
Can I say, the most bizarrely-good word to describe my feeling at the moment is: Let me go. If they really do, that calls for a payback from me. Maybe a day of fasting?
Note 1: I need someone to hold on to. Or else, they will keep comparing the good and bad with me. Can’t they just let me go? Kadang-kadang hidup ini memang penuh kegilaan.
Note 2: Referring to ‘note 3’ in my previous entry, it seems that I won’t have any Wednesday since I do not sleep all night long.
People always say “When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones which open for us”
whatever happen to kak sarah, hopefully it will help u! 🙂
take a deep breath and smile ya! 😀
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yup,setuju dgn ain..alangkah baiknya kalau kita mampu utk ‘jgn toleh ke belakang lagi’ for a better reason of course,kan ks?..my hb ckp smlm when i grumbled on kalau boleh putar masa ni to change the past,he said “nothing to be changed..just let it be..kalau tak,tentu lain ceritanya sekarang”.
nway,hope u always be filled with strength,wisdom n faith..smile ya! =)
p/s: suka tau akak dh nak habis bljr n dh nak balik msia..good luck!
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Sarah Reply:
March 5th, 2009 at 4:59 pm
p/s: Akak sangat happy dapat jumpa kamu semula ni!
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Assalamualaikum…..
Harap awak baik2 sahaja di sana….kalau boleh kan?….i don’t want to look at back…but there were lots of lessons to learn….
Aja2 fighting!!!!!!
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Sarah Reply:
March 5th, 2009 at 5:00 pm
Wa’alaikumussalam Hidayat.
Kalau boleh, saya pun taknak tengok ke belakang semula dah. But there is always reasons behind all that happened.
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Kelmarin waktu ainul tengah mengeluh banyak masalah, ada kawan tunjuk ayat ini.. Sekarang, terasa mahu kasi kat ks pula —> Al-Balad ayat 4 . Kata dia juga, lepas tengok yang ini, pergi buka surah Al-Mukminun pula. Dalam tu ada banyaaaaakkk sangat jalan penyelesaian masalah. Cuba try tutup mata, buka surah tu, doa dalam hati mintak petunjuk, dan buka mata sambil tngok ayat yang pertama sekali ks terpandang dalam surah tu. Tak kisahla ayat keberapa. Insyallah, mungkin ada petunjuk… ~Sekadar berkongsi~
p/s: nota satu tu macamnya ks dibanding sebab takde somebody nak hold on to. Ada dua benda yg terfikir nih. Tapi taktaulah mana satu. Apa-apa pun, keep believing in yourself. Lantaklah diaorang nak rendahkan kita. Janji kita ada something yang kita yakin dan kita pegang itu yang terbaik untuk kita. Mulut manusia akan ada juga time senyap bila dah penat. Keep your faith sis.. 😉
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Sarah Reply:
March 5th, 2009 at 5:00 pm
Thanks kongsikan tu Ainul 🙂
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Hey.. so something did happened.
Don’t let yourself drifted, sometimes it is just in our heart, and unfortunately we can really control our heart, so just be strong dan banyak bersabar.
Doa, banyakkan doa. May Allah bagi kita kekuatan itu, and ilham what is the best way to continue to live our life.
And probably try more recipe too 🙂
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yg penting Khamis malam nanti cukup tidur kalu tak esok Jumaat dlm masjid samikna waatokna angguk2
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My dear sarah, i’m always here for u.
Just a lil words here. If its da best for u to let it go. Just let it go. But if its something dat u really want to hold on to, hold it tightly as long as u can dear.
u’ll never be alone dear!
xoxo
take care sarah!
senyum meh. 😛
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Sarah Reply:
March 5th, 2009 at 5:02 pm
Adeh Nadia. Mungkin yang awak faham ni terbalik dari apa yang saya maksudkan kot. Hehe. Saya memang dah let go semuanya. Tapi yang di pihak sana yang masih duk ungkit itu ini. Hehe. Saya taknak langsung hold on to them. I need someone else to hold on too 😉
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hold on HIM…
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